Paradoxes and Pies
adding my voice to the static



Developer: Gearbox
Publisher: 2K Games
Genre: Role-playing shooter
Released: Fall 2009
Platforms: Xbox 360, Playstation 3, Windows

First off, As someone who has played this game for over 50 hour there are still moments of genuine joy while playing this game. For any veteran of the FPS (First-Person Shooter) the controls are intuitive and easy to pick up. The total first person newbie, might have some difficulty navigating the 3rd person environment at first, but trust me the initial disorientation will be worth the experience you are about to have.

The player is one of the four vault seekers here to kick all the ass on Pandora and claim the mythical vault as your own. Legends abound of the wealth that the vault contains, but the path is littered with pitfalls and perils. The four seekers of the vault are; Lilith, the siren who specializes in her phase walk attack, Roland, the Soldier, whose turret actually makes it feel “like there is a another solider on the field”, Mordeci, the hunter, whose pet Bloodwig tears his foes to shreds, and Brick who loves to use his fists to get the job done. Playing as one these four and the action starts as the player is familiar with the HUD.

This game is fast-paced and action packed FPS RPG (Role Playing Game) with enemies constantly testing your mettle. The player will find it hard to ever have a moment of boredom while playing and then there is the loot! The player is always on the prowl for the next awesome gun or piece of equipment and the player will find it. The player will sometimes find themselves exclaiming in unison with their character when they find their next piece of ‘Phat Loot’. The game even allows the player to play multiple playthroughs with the same character if they didn’t get enough as they gunned their way through the wilds of Pandora the first time. The player even has the option of having up to 3 other people help on their adventure.

The game does have a few glitches. Sometimes you can get stuck and the in-game menu is somewhat clunky especially in split screen. However, you don’t spend much time in menu and a quick reload with get you unstuck anyway. You probably won’t lose anything anyway because the game auto-saves seamlessly and often.

Gearbox has created a strong game with this release with only a few minor glitches. Their implementation of the FPS with just a dash of RPG is a truly addictive combination.

4 out of 5 stars

by Flickr user cheekster

by Flickr user cheekster

So on September 3rd around sunset on the side of the Temple facing a giant Rubik-like cube, that stood suspended in mid air, I bent on one knee and asked Katie to be my wife. She said yes of course, but even as I knew she wanted to be my wife. This was a moment of truth. A momentous decision. The task did not feel easy or rushed.

So I am now engaged. I proposed to my Fiance during our visit to the ephemeral Black Rock City in Nevada (say it with a smile). This was my second visit to Black Rock City and I saw it only fitting since we had a Playa Marrage (yes that is how it is spelled on the certificate) during our last visit to the city we should become engaged in the default word during my second visit there.

I did have a few frustrating moments leading up to our arrival and that left me stranded in BRC without a ring, but with a plan. This was plan b as plan a was deemed by the ninja proposal planning committee (thanks lynn!) as too movie like to actually work and plan b became viable because some of the playadipity that I normally experience on the playa started happening a few weeks before I actually arrived there. My friend, Calamity Joe, mentioned that he had crafted some wooden rings to give away as gifts this year. I had asked him if he could provide me a suitable alternative and he stated that he already had make a pair of rings one for the each of us. Excellent, Plan b might actually work! Plan B had to work.

So I remembered the bottle of whiskey for the Whiskey & Whores saloon and set out to find my carpenter with my soon-to-be Fiance in tow shortly after we had settled in after arriving through the gate. I made a special effort to track the place down the first night using the guise of my whiskey delivery as an excuse. We arrive at the saloon and Joe is not about. This is why I started wandering over here early in the week. Drats! now I would have to start using my bromance with Joe as a excuse to want to constantly visit. I accepted that it wasn’t the time and continued our visit to BRC.

Our first night there we ended up visiting the temple and I was able to plan out where I wanted the proposal to take place. All I needed was for Joe to come through. I was finally able to meet up with Joe as his camp, but the rings that he created for us had been misplaced so he provided me with an alternative one that he happened to have on hand. It was actually perfect, but Joe then admitted that he knew nothing about ring sizes and wished me the best. Okay … well I hope it fits was all I thought as I claimed the ring in front my love. I was trying to be sneaky, but I was not sure if it worked. Finally, I was armed with my magical wooden engagement ring. Now all we needed was to be at the temple at the perfect time and the perfect place. Part of me knew it would happen and part of me was worried about how it would go down.

The perfect place and time happened, Sledge, one of our camp mates, offered us a short ride in his Tiki Art Car. We had been wanting to ride in a Art Car and I was dressed as I wanted to be dressed when I proposed. I didn’t try to commandeer the trip, but I knew that the moment was upon us. Sledge eventually drove out to the temple without any prompting from me. This was the moment I was waiting for. I was extremely nervous as we approached the temple and I was trying very hard not to show it. Playing up how awestruck I was with the marvelous views that we were seeing all around us. We began to wander around the temple. I ,barely, paid attention to the marvelous work that adorned the panels that made up the majority of the temple. We traveled through the throng cooing at each other until we reach the top of the temple and looked out over the playa towards the man. There was a wedding taking place at the foot of the temple. We spoke more about life and wanting to be with each other forever. The wedding completed and hoots and hollering came from all around the temple. I let out a cheer and then ushered her over to another side of the temple that was quieter and had less activity. All through this time I was trying to remain calm and keep myself to the task at hand. This was the moment and this was when it was supposed to happen. I told her that I wanted to be with her forever and she replied in kine as we have done many times before. However, after she finished speaking I stated lets make this official. I bent down to one knee, looked her in the eye, stated her full name and asked Will you marry me and for the second it took her to reply my world shook as I looked into her eyes. After she said yes though her surprised covered mouth I could stand again. We came together and kissed and she shed joyous tears.

One of our friends even took pictures of us moments after it happened completely by accident. So the moment happened and I have never been happier. Everything happened as playadipidtyly planned as possible.

Whew done stressing…

I haz fiance now.


I have been holding this in for a couple weeks. I want to take a moment and write about the Flow I experienced at PexFest this past fourth of july weekend.

I have been slightly obsessed with flower sticks, devil sticks and their fiery cousins since I joined the Burner community in March of ’08. I feel like I have been a Burner longer then that, but that is a different story. My last few Burns and burn like events have taken this obsession up another notch. I have increase in skills and obtained better equipment to be confident enough that I can spin flaming objects around my body without panicking that I will burn myself. My face still shows utter concentration, but next time I spin with fire I will just plaster a smile on my face and let myself enter the Flow.

Flow? What is that you ask? Why did you capitilize it? Are you crazy?

Flow is letting go of yourself and becoming one with whatever activitity you are currently doing. By doing this you are acessing your Divine spark, soul, meditative state, Qi body, or whatever you call the will and sprirt that is within us all. This Flow can be attained in a variety of ways.

I experienced Flow by spinning my set of fire flower sticks. I had been so obsessed with learning tricks that I was getting stuck in a rut of just repeating them over and over again. However when I lit up this foruth of July the flames immediately burned away all concerns and demanded my complete attention. It was just me and the fire. While I stumbled occasionally the wonder and relaxation of the just spinning and tossing flame was nearly overwelhming. After the flames had finally burned themselves out I felt as if I had awoken from a dream. It was then that I knew I had felt true flow while spinning.

Here is a simple meditation that will help you touch the Flow that resides within you. I picked this up from a workshop I attended at PexFest or something pretty close too it.

1) close your eyes.

2) take three deep breath calming yourself.

3) Empty you mind and exist only in the now.

4) Concentrate on what yours senses are trying to tell you and lose yourself in their sensations.

5) Continue to dismiss all intrusive thoughts. Thank them for their information and move on.

6)Feel the flow deep within yourself. This formlessnes is your essence and has been with you since before the day you were born.

7)Continue untill you feel a natural end. 25 minutes of meditation can create as much relaxation for the brain as six hours of natural sleep.

May you find your flow.
Reverend Random


I lost a family member last week and this is my memorial to him.  I actually didn’t know ‘Tobe’ all that well.  He was just a distant family member well at least distant to me.  I believe he is my mother’s cousin and while I knew all the different types of relatvie relations ,such as second cousin twice removed,  the exact deffinition is escaping me at the moment.

What little I did know is that he always had a smile and a smart ass comment for me whenever he saw me.  And from his memorial service it appeared that he had a smile and a smart ass comment for everyone he knew.  I believe know that everyone saw it in his eyes was that it was just his way of showing that he cared.  His eyes twinkled as he spoke his remarks and you knew that the proper response was to give a smart ass comment back.

My heart is a little heavier from his passing and I send out my sincerest condolences for his immediate family,  His Wife, f our children, and nine grandkids.  He lived his life, loved his wife, raised his children, helped raise his grandkids and even made peace with his creator.  I believe he earned his rest.

Below is the obituary that was posted in the local newspapers:

Marvin “Tobby” Gould Sr., son of the late Mary (nee Gould) Tucker and Elmer Tucker, departed this life on Wednesday, June 24, 2009, while a patient at the South Jersey Healthcare-Regional Medical Center, Vineland, N.J.

Mr. Gould was born Oct. 3, 1933, in Fairfield Township, and has been an area resident for all of his life. He attended St. John United Methodist Church, in Fordville. After 23 years of employment with Wheaton Glass, of Millville, he retired due to his declining health. He was known as Camper by CB Operators.

He leaves to cherish his memory his loving wife, Gladys Pauline “Pearl” (nee Ridgeway) Gould; children, Nash P. Ridgeway Sr., Marvin Jr., Ward F. and Paula Gould; sisters, Gladys and Anna Thomas; 9 grandchildren, nieces, nephews, cousins and friends.


Good night you ornery cuss!  You have earned your rest and you will be missed.  Don’t give the Heavens too much trouble now you hear.


On June 20th at about or on 4:20 PM I was given the pleasure of uniting two of my best friends together in Holy Matrimony.  It was my first wedding as an officiant.  It has become a highlight of my life.

I  chose to be ordained by the ULC in 2004.  I  probably did this as  rebellion from the mainstream faiths as I had become extremely annoyed by them.  I did not understand how they could insist that God was separate from his children when God is his children.  We are all the Divine.

I never thought that I would get to perform any of the functions that a community needs from a spiritual guide.  I thought I would just follow my own path.

Last year when my friends mentioned that they were having some difficulty finding a minister I immediately offered my services.  It just jumped out from me before I could realize what I was saying.  I just knew that I needed to provide them with this gift.  I chose to be ordained this is a duty I must perform for people that were so deserving. They accepted my offer.  I was elated.

Below is the following ceremony I performed:

Gathering Words:
Welcome friends, families, and honored guests.  We are here to celebrate love.  Love organizes our large and sometimes unpredictable world.  It is that which enshrines and ennobles our human experience.  It is the basis for the peace of family, and the peace of the peoples of the earth.  The greatest gift bestowed upon humans is the gift of love freely given amongst one another.

Officiant’s Address:
In marriage, two people turn to each other in search of a greater fulfillment than either can achieve alone.  Marriage is a bold step, taken together, into an unknown future.   It is risking who we are for the sake of who we can be.  Only in giving of ourselves fully, and sharing our lives  with another, can the mysterious process of growth take place.  Only in loyalty and devotion bestowed upon another can that which is eternal in life emerge and be known.  Two among us, who have stood apart, come together now, to declare their love and to be united in marriage.

Consent of the Families:
Doubly blessed is the couple which comes to the marriage altar with the approval and blessings of their families and friends. Who has the honor of presenting this woman to be married to this man?
(I do or Her Mother and I do)

Charge to the couple:

Chris and Amanda,  I counsel you, as husband and wife, to always give respect to one another even when you disagree, to bear with each other’s weaknesses, to comfort each other in times of trouble or sorrow, to work with generous hearts to provide for the material needs of each other and the household, and to help one another experience spiritual, mental, emotional, and physical comfort.

Have you come here freely and without reservation to give yourselves to each other in marriage?
(Yes we have)

Do you, Chris, take Amanda to be your lawfully wedded wife, to have and to hold from this day forward, for better or for worse, for richer, for poorer, in sickness and in health, to love and to cherish; from now until death do you part?
(I do)
Do you, Amanda, take Chris to be your lawfully wedded husband, to have and to hold from this day forward, for better or for worse, for richer, for poorer, in sickness and in health, to love and to cherish; from now until death do you part?
(I do)

Ring Exchange:
For thousands of years lovers have exchanged rings as a token of their commitment to one another. These rings say that in your uniqueness, you have chosen to be bound together. Let these rings be a pledge to protect one another from fear, ails, and sorrow.

Marriage is a state in which two people come together and create a union which is greater than the sum of its parts. It is difficult to express in words the profound relationship that is love. The ring has long been a symbol of the sincerity and permanence of a couple’s love for one another and regard for their marriage. As the circle can begin anew at any point, so a good marriage can pick any point to renew itself. These rings are symbols of your eternal love.

Please present each other with the rings.

Bride’s Father Hand Blessing:

I would now like invite Mr.  Lappine to the front to perform a hand blessing

Amanda, please hold Chris’s hands palms up, so you may see the gift that they are to you. These are the hands of your best friend, young and strong and vibrant with love, that are holding yours on your wedding day, as he promises to passionately love you and cherish you through the years, for a lifetime of happiness. These are the hands that will work along side yours, as together you build your future, as you laugh and cry, as you share your innermost secrets and dreams.
These are the hands that will countless times wipe the tears from your eyes; tears of sorrow and tears of joy. These are the hands that will comfort you in illness, and hold you when fear or grief engulfs your heart. These are the hands that when wrinkled and aged will still be reaching for yours, still giving you the same unspoken tenderness with just a touch.
These are the hands that will tenderly lift your chin and brush your cheek as they raise your face to look into his eyes; eyes filled completely with his overwhelming love and desire for you.

Chris, please hold Amanda’s hands palms up, so you may see the gift that they are to you. These are the hands of your best friend, smooth, young and carefree, that are holding yours on your wedding day, as she promises to passionately love you and cherish you through the years, for a lifetime of happiness. These are the hands that will massage tension from your neck and back in the evenings after you?ve both had a long hard day. These are the hands that will hold you tight as you struggle through difficult times. These are the hands that will comfort  you when you are sick, or console you when you are grieving.
These are the hands that when wrinkled and aged will still be reaching for yours, still giving you the same unspoken tenderness with just a touch. These are the hands that will give you support as she encourages you to chase down your dreams. Together as a team, everything you wish for can be realized.

Thank you

Sand Ceremony:
Today, this relationship is symbolized through the pouring of these two individual containers of sand into one vessel; one representing you, Amanda, and all that you were, all that you are, and all that you will ever be, and the other representing you, Chris, and all that you were and all that you are, and all that you will ever be. As these two containers of sand are poured into the third container, the individual containers of sand will no longer exist, but will be joined together as one. Just as these grains of sand can never be separated and poured again into the individual containers, so will your marriage be, united as one for all of your days.

Closing Words:
It is love that brings you here today. It is love that makes yours a glorious union. And it will be love that makes your marriage endure. Love has given you wings, and your journey begins today. This is a journey no two have traveled before, it is unique to you. Wherever life may take you, you will stay by each other’s side. I therefore join with everyone gathered today in our wish for your relationship to flourish and grow throughout a long and happy life together.

By the powers vested in me by the State of New Jersey and by the Divine, I pronounce you husband and wife.

With greatest pleasure, I present to you for the first time, Mr. & Mrs..

I tried my best to deliver the ceremony that the bride requested. The Moment flew by in a flash.  Joy filled the room and was nearly overwhelming.  A great time was then had by all at the reception late into the evening followed by brunch the next day.

Now I know I must offer my services to the friends who need them.  Our spirituality is changing and we need people who walk  similar spiritual paths to administer our oaths and help others along the paths that they choose.

Even if they are still walking and stumbling along their own path.

May you never step in any puddles and if you do may you  remember that it is only water.

Reverend Random

*Takes off the Reverend hat and sticks it away for later*


I was tagged by k8et by ! Hmmm…My first ever tag questionaire … that I am answering.  I think.  Well the first one that matters.

1. Who is the hottest movie star?

I don’t really pay attention to celebraties …  I see them as normal people.  I appreciate their work.  Mentally thank them for the story and move on.  So more often then not I don’t remember them.   However, I do have two movie stars that I consider the hottest and they are  Angelia Jolie and Brad Pitt.  I count them as one becuase they are married.

2. Apart from a house and/or car, what is the most expensive thing you’ve ever bought?

I bought my college education and boy am I still paying for it.  I still consider it worth  every penny.

3. What’s your most treasured memory?

I will have to agree with my love k8et on both counts.  It is hard to choose from the so many good memories, as it should be.  However, The sun rise that I experienced at my First Burning Man in 2008 the morning after the man burned downed was life changing.

4. What was the best gift that you ever received as a child?

Hands down, Etch-a-sketch Animator.  This was the only toy I wanted for christmas one year.  My mom suceeded in finding one and I promptly broke it a few months later while I was over dramatizing being sick.  I was shattered.

5. 4 words to describe yourself ~

Random, Quixotic, Curious, Quiet

6. What was the highlight of 2008?

Finding my love ❤

7. Favorite film?

Run Lola Run

8. Tell me one thing that I don’t know about you.

I have robot ears.

9. If you were a comic book / cartoon character, who would you be?

When I was young I would have said Charlie Brown, but now I alternate between Invader Zim and Gir.

10. What’s one stupid thing that you did today?

I let them give me more work at work today.


So I asked my love to help me add my voice to the static of the internet.

She help me set up this blog.  Which admitly I could have done myself if I just took a few minutes.   So here it is.  All this space and of course writers block. 

I guess my biggest problem is that I don’t know what to write about.

Should I theme the blog or just whatever strikes my fancey.  I mean sure I spell poorly and I will rise the ire of a few grammar nazis, but I can not get better at a craft until I pratice it.

Am I afraid that I will be judged by the faceless masses of the web?

Does that even matter?

not really. 

Okay so I am over being judged.

Now what do I write about?

My faith?

My way?

My projects?

My mad scientist projects?

My whimsical flights of fancy?

Hmm…Looks like have a few topics for my next blog. 

May the time between this one and the next be counted in hours instead of weeks.


So I’m blogging.

I am not really sure what one would write about.

Maybe I should start it like a program.

#include life.h

Void main{

Voice.Out(“Hello World.”);


Well I guess that is a start…

Oh I wrote this from my iPhone.

No, I am not pretentious.